It has been so long since I have written anything here or on any platform. It feels great to even have the desire to write again. I have so much to say! It is my sincerest hope that anyone that reads this is happy and healthy.
In 2019 I shared an idea with someone that told me I could trust them in fact, insisted that they were trustworthy. I was excited about this idea! I had shared this with two friends prior to this unscrupulous one and they loved it. They also kept my confidence and did not share it or use it for themselves. I took that for granted by assuming that because two other friends showed me that they could be trusted, this friend could be trusted as well. Insert a hearty belly laugh here because boy, was I wrong! I shared this idea with someone that insisted that they could be trusted not to use this information to their advantage and they did even after I repeatedly asked, told, and begged them not to.
Their audacity distracted me so much that I stepped away from my own projects. I did not want to admit that it rattled me so but it did. They assumed they could fix it by giving me “acknowledgement” for the idea. They had no qualms about what was done, no qualms about being a liar, no qualms about anything that was done AT ALL. I actually showed them more respect than they ever showed me by remaining cordial for a while, distant but cordial. Somewhere in me, I thought that I could “be the bigger person” (overrated by the way). But this kind of betrayal of trust is immensely telling of a person’s character and telling of what and HOW they think of me.
Sometimes people will literally beg you to trust them only to betray you. Those people truly are raggedy-toothed, mangy wolves in sheep’s clothing. They do serve a purpose however and I think that purpose is to remind us that we are not all the same. We are not all cut from the same clothe. Some are cut from an old, wet cardboard box that was pulled from the trash heap. Others are TRUSTWORTHY.
We should not stop being who we are or halt what we were doing because some jerk took advantage of us. Also we should not be afraid to speak our truths about our experience with these people. If they lied and/or hurt you in any way, admit it. It is actually okay to admit that someone mistreated you and to remove them from your life. If they wanted to be in it, they would have treated you better.
This occurred 2 years ago and it has taken me this long to find a way to release it. My being honest about how it affected me may help someone else. It is definitely helping me. I felt SUPER STUPID! I felt as though no one could be trusted ever again. But thankfully, I am wrong.
I learned several things from that ordeal. I learned that I am so very fortunate to actually have people in my life that I can truly trust. I have learned to rely on my instincts more and TRUST when it tells me not to trust. Yep, you read that correctly. I have also learned to not become jaded but also to guard myself, my projects and other things that I hold precious. And lastly, to never, EVER allow anything to knock me off course again! A song that I loved in my younger years comes to mind. It is by Men at Work and the chorus goes:
“Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride
Nobody’s gonna slow me down
Oh no, I’ve got to keep on moving
Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride
I’m running and I won’t touch ground
Oh no, I’ve got to keep on moving”
This particular blog is more of a form of therapy for me. It is my way of getting back up, increasing my pace and to keep moving. I do hope that it helps someone else or, at a minimum, was/is entertaining.